[post_page_title]Not the same[/post_page_title]
In the post, she directly addresses her mom up in heaven, and this is a way she’s found peace in being able to reach her on some level. She wrote, “I can’t imagine being able to find the holiday joy again. But I will try for you. It’s what you would have wanted.”
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Christie’s understanding of her personal grief is different every day, and now that she’s entering the holiday season, she knows her mom wouldn’t have wanted her to wallow in her pain. Instead, she would have wanted her to find joy in some way or another.